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I kneel beside the marble headstone, not caring about dirt clinging to my white dress and trace the words with my finger, setting the single rose in my other hand in the freshly cut grass.

“The First death of [F/N] [L/N]”

A smile plays across my lips as I think back to that day in the hospital, when everything had gone black. When my heart had stopped.

However, that was not the end.

To quote the doctors, I was a fighter.

And it was true. I hadn’t given up. Even when I had seen the light at the end of the tunnel.

I came back.

Ripped away from the clutches of death.

Technically, I was pronounced dead, and remained that way for roughly twenty minutes.
Perhaps the most peaceful twenty minutes of my life. But then I was shocked back to life, quite literally.

I smirk as I recall the other day when I was eating lunch with Alfred at our usual table.

“Why do you wear black so much? Are you like, in mourning?” he had asked out of the blue.

I had looked up at him, slightly startled but then nodded slowly. “Kind of.”

He tilted his head, smiling in confusion.  “Who died?”

I smiled up at him. “Me.”

I chuckle to myself as I lie down beside the stone and look up at the clouds.

This is where I could’ve been.  A part of the earth.

Resting eternally.

But I wasn’t ready. No matter how comfortable that peaceful quiet had been. I wanted more.
Sights, sounds, emotions. Joyful, destructive. Moments, fragments of memory.

I craved them.

“That’s a good one, [Name].” The blonde had chuckled slightly to himself.

I stared at him quizzically. “Dude, I’m serious. My heart stopped.”

“Whoa, What!?” He had stared at me in a horrified manner, sky blue eyes widening with worry. “I’m so sorry!”

Then, he hesitated, trying to string this information together. “Wait….so if you’re not dead…are you a zombie?”

I merely laughed in response. “No, they brought me back. I was almost gone, but they brought me back.”

He laughed a little, somewhat awkwardly. “Oh, okay. That makes sense.”


“Yeah, Al?”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay. I don’t mind.”

A few planes enter my sphere of vision as I watch them lazily jet past.

The sunlight begins to change in color as the day grows older and I sigh, sitting up and taking one last look at my stone. I still remember when I first brought Alfred here.

“Well, Here it is.”

“Whoa! You have a headstone?!”

I had laughed at his amazement. “Yeah. It was more of a jokey thing. A gift from my parents on my anniversary. It’s more symbolic than anything.”

He had nodded, squatting in front of it and rubbing his thumb across the marble. “Oh. I see. Symbolic of what?”

I shrugged and kneeled beside him, looking at the cold, dark rock.

“The day my apprehension died.” I took a deep breath as I stared at it. “I’m not scared to live my life anymore.”

He nodded slowly, taking in my words, and I could feel his unhesitating gaze on me.

My face heated up slightly and I had coughed awkwardly, trying to break the silence that had fallen upon us.

The usually loud American had sighed, setting a white rose on top of my stone and stood
up, holding his hand out to me.

I took it carefully, looking up at him and attempting to judge his expression.

Smiling, he had cupped my face with one hand and I found myself staring back into his bright blue eyes.

“[Name], you’re really inspiring. And…I hope…that we can spend more of our time together…”

I had smiled back. “I hope so too.”

‘Life is precious’

That phrase echoed in my memory. It was what my Grandmother had once said.

His hand had rubbed my head gently, smoothly gliding over my hair.

“You don’t always have to be strong, you know. It’s okay to be afraid sometimes.”

I nodded, lowering my gaze. “I know. And I can’t always be strong. But as long as I’m with you, I’m never afraid.”

His usual goofball grin was back. “When the hero’s here, there’s no need to fear~!”

I giggled, hugging him and burying my face in his shirt. “That’s exactly what you are. My hero.”

And it was true. Before I had met him, I had become so detached from the world.
I felt so out of place.

No one understood me, what went through my head. And in all honesty, I was afraid.
It was a miracle that I was alive.

But then, Alfred came along, and reminded me what it was like to be truly happy.

Full of life.

“Hey!” My reminiscence is broken by that familiar voice and I sit up to see my boyfriend trotting towards me, a beautiful bouquet in hand.

“Hi, Al.” I smile as I stand and dust myself off.

He stops beside me, panting slightly.

“I almost didn’t think you would make it.”

He chuckles and kisses my cheek. “Of course I would make it. I was determined to get here no matter what.” He holds the flowers out to me, and my eyes widen slightly.

“Even if it means I’d have to wait all morning to get these.”

“Wow! They’re beautiful!”

I expect him to set them down beside my rose but he shakes his head and slips them into my arms.

“These are for you. Not your memory. For the beautiful, amazing, living, breathing, [Name].”

I laugh, and kiss his cheek.

“Thank you, Alfred.”
For everything.
Yay~! I'm not dead!
Here is another America x Reader.
Less fluff....
I apologize for the lack of writing...lately I've been suffering from writer's block and school has also gotten pretty busy.
Plus, I just got over a cold....
Not a good mix.
I hope you enjoy!

The story is mine.
I don't own you or Hetalia.
Hetalia (c) Hidekaz Himaruya
You belong to yourself.
Found the picture here: [link]
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TheMasterLucario Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2015  Student Digital Artist
I want to be a Shinigami! Pleeeeease? I don't want to live a regular, person life!
galaxysnowleopard Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
IM A CAT! 9 LIVES XD JK im more like a zombie but it was awesome!
Skye-42 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Student General Artist
This is really well done! I love it!
ShinkaiShoujo Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much! I'm quite happy to hear that you enjoyed it ^ ^
Skye-42 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014  Student General Artist
Late reply, but you're welcome. ^^
lynne9123 Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

Me: -Rises up like a zombie motion-.....Hey? What happened to a nudge? Where's the coffee?

Doctor: O.O
gothygermanchick Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I would probably get a coffin , I herd those things might be for the dead , but are super comfy!!! [ I tested one for fun ] :D (Big Grin) 
roseyohrt Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
everybodydotheflop65 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Bitches I will live forever! IMA ZOMBIE!!! Deff :D
LoveStakler Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Student Artisan Crafter
im immortal bitches!!
AlphaShepardWolf Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Student General Artist
YES I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A ZAMBIE (zombie).....or am I a ghost? Vampire, perhaps?
Great story! I liked the part when I didn't die....that's the second time I've said that......
whiterockshooter15 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
:iconkiralaughplz: I Am Immortal. :iconamericawootplz:
hetaliabangtheoryfan Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
so if i'm dead..........and i'm not a zombie.............then it must be......................I'M IMMORTAL XD
That1AsianChick Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
DJ-Sky-Storm-117 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:O You makea me Feelz!!!!
ChibiPenny Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
love it :')
ShinkaiShoujo Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm Glad! ^ ^
ChibiPenny Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
YEp~ ^^
OoDisturbedNerdoO Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE! :iconkiralaughplz:

*Ahem* Anyway, good story. >.>
ShinkaiShoujo Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
OoDisturbedNerdoO Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem, Bro. :iconfistbumpplz:
RainyRevalia Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I was hoping I would die, :iconmegustaplz:
But I didnt. anyways, awesome story! :iconthumbsuppl:
ShinkaiShoujo Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you ^ ^
RainyRevalia Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
RainyRevalia Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Whoops! :iconthumbsupplz:
hit-enta Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I LOVE it! Yay, I didn't die! So sweet......
ShinkaiShoujo Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
heh. I'm glad you enjoyed it! ^ ^
ShmowCat Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013 mean.....i actually didnt die this time??? XD mind=blown

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